Re-entering the abyss of my mind...
Introspection
Every second of my life has been consumed with the age old notion that "We do not have enough TIME!"
Everything is marked from the moment I stare at my shiny blue alarm clock til the moment life overwhelms me enough where sleep becomes the better option.
It demands with fullest vigor my undying attention that goals MUST be met OR ELSE.
Tormented by this fear has driven my life to depths where I do not even recognize who I am anymore.
Intentions and desires originally manifest for the purpose of serving myself.
However, this quickly changes and is enveloped by the core of what controls me daily.
I find myself trying so hard for something, but in the end I fail to remember what this something meant and why I wanted it.
Only in the times where I didn't try and I allowed life to intervene as it should,
Was I able to understand what it all meant... TO ME.
That this world is full of questions, and not enough answers.
A dichotomy of Pleasure and Sin. Life and death. Joy and Despair.
I realize that I really seek neither side.
But rather allow life to BE.
Walking...
Living...
Believing...
Desperately Surviving by Balancing the Middle Path.
Introspection
Every second of my life has been consumed with the age old notion that "We do not have enough TIME!"
Everything is marked from the moment I stare at my shiny blue alarm clock til the moment life overwhelms me enough where sleep becomes the better option.
It demands with fullest vigor my undying attention that goals MUST be met OR ELSE.
Tormented by this fear has driven my life to depths where I do not even recognize who I am anymore.
Intentions and desires originally manifest for the purpose of serving myself.
However, this quickly changes and is enveloped by the core of what controls me daily.
I find myself trying so hard for something, but in the end I fail to remember what this something meant and why I wanted it.
Only in the times where I didn't try and I allowed life to intervene as it should,
Was I able to understand what it all meant... TO ME.
That this world is full of questions, and not enough answers.
A dichotomy of Pleasure and Sin. Life and death. Joy and Despair.
I realize that I really seek neither side.
But rather allow life to BE.
Walking...
Living...
Believing...
Desperately Surviving by Balancing the Middle Path.
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